6daEXIt Improvisation Ensemble performing ‘Círculos (Circles)’ (2018) by Liliana Rodríguez Alvarado.
Performers: Yiannis Dimitroudis, Yorgos Holopoulos, Chrysi Parpara, Dimitra Pavlou, Ioanna Valsamara
Auditorium of Panteion University Athens, 6/2/2019 “Music Bridge Over Syngrou Avenue”.
A project conducted by Onassis Cultural Center Athens and Panteion University Athens. Project head: Lorenda Ramou Professor in charge, Panteion University: Georgios Klimis
The poem that accompanies the piece, written by the composer aka Nabora Carrillo:
Ergodicidad = ergodicity “todo cambia pero todo se mantiene igual” “everything changes but everything remains the same” I’m obsessed with the fact that I see everytime, everywhere, things are always repeating in different ways With different persons, colors, flavors, places, families, couples. This piece is one of a series of pieces based on that. I really want that this one be the last of the series but I don’t think I will be able to escape from it. Like when you scroll down to read Facebook news like when you eat with gluttony like when you love with your conditions like when you spend all your money partying like when you buy only to buy like when you think only about yourself like when you stay because it’s convenient like when you don’t change what bothers you like when you get up at the same hour with the same routine like when you act the same at Christmas or family parties like when you clench your teeth like when you watch the same type of movies like when you have that ritual before your important events like when you judge the same kind of people like when you smoke three cigars or ten like when you overestimate the same type of people like when you don’t act in that situation like when you overreact in that other situation like when some situation make you uncomfortable like when you zip your mouth even though everyone already knows what happened like when you leave your tasks for the end like when you feel guilty like when you forgive because you love like when you smile in uncomfortable situations like when you pay attention to what other people have that you don’t like when you want to control the situation your way like when you are so friendly that it becomes fake like when you do networking like when you form an opinion about other people's situations like when you give a gift to the person you love like when you have the same routine Like when you don’t pay attention to your body like when you keep smoking like when you pay something and you never use it like when you put that face when something bothers you like when you can not be alone like when you always do the same thing to escape from your problems like when you keep thinking about unimportant things like when you torture yourself with thoughts of self-harm like when you listen to the same song like when you devour all the almonds like when you keep doing the same like when you keep doing the same like when you keep doing the same repetitions Like when you don’t do what you should Like when you're still stressed by that person Like when you know you should leave but you stay Like when you know you should stay but you go Like when you grind your teeth Like when you get those warning signs And you ignore them Like when you want to scream Like when you have headache Like when you do not pay attention to the body Like when you want to reflect, but temptation comes Like when it's easier to say no Like when it's easier to say yes Like when you fall in love without thinking Like when they treat you badly and you still follow them Like when you're still the cliché of a woman Like when you're still the cliché of Mexican Like when your pet asks you for love Like when you remember the way you look like when you ask for love Like when another pet that is not yours asks for love (and you remember the way you look like when you ask a stranger for love) Like when you let your friend do something you know is wrong Like when you stay quiet Like when you can not do anything (yes you can) Like when you think you can’t do anything Like when history represses you The genetic history Like when you prefer falling asleep Like when it's 11:54 a.m. As when it is Holy Thursday Like when you move and stay the same Like when you change your house but you're still the same Like when you think that changing your city will change you Like when you idealize Like when you see a cat interacting with a dog Like when it's 11:55 am in Torreón Coahuila, Mx. Like when you are a fool Like when you’re being sanctimonious Like when you hate Like when you love Like when you see the gray at dawn Like when you cheat I'm obsessed with the word “circle” and with the circle "Everything changes, but everything remains the same" I can’t do that, in the past things were different, I think, because I made them different, but the evil existed in my father's laziness, in my mother’s nurturing. Like when the family helps you Like when the family fucks you Like when they do not love you and you're still clinging to them Like when you smile at a stranger and you enjoy the day Like when you caress a cat Like when your friend's mom doesn’t love you Like when you're hungry And you smoke a cigar Like when you decide to drink alcohol instead of facing yourself. like when you decide to take poison and die little by little or like when you repent and can not go back like when the effect of the poison passes and you want more like when you get anxious like when your hands are sweating because you're nervous like when you want to shit because you're nervous like when your knees tremble out of fear like when you think Facebook knows what you are thinking like when you're hot and you forget it like when you do not need anyone and you forget it like when happiness returns like when you already know what you will and won’t do like when you really do know, but you're still taking the drug like when you're so confused that you do not know what you write like “How, when, leave it, alright?” Like when the ayahuasca told you that everything is fine and you forgot about it. Like when you get drugged and drugged and drugged each day using one thing, then another day using another thing, and so on, you repeat patterns from your ancestors and their ancestors, the same way in sequence and movement that micro-ogranisms use to reproduce, that force of attraction that kills any other, that way of wanting that we never know if it's real or not The dog fighting against the cat is the new way to see nature: all against all. All for the pleasure of the coolest, of the most badass chingón. For that pornographic image, even your little brothers see you as they want to eat you. It's the decline of the city, I do not know, ignore it, do your things, stand firm, escape, do not feel uncomfortable, do not react, do what you want; normal. Pleasures are the things we pursue the most and for which we make circles and circles of pleasure; people change, things are changed, houses are changed, colors are changed, seasons, day, night, but the energies don’t, keep your energy safe from them, if you do not want them, dogs follow you, waiting to catch you, you can not handle them, you can not change centuries and centuries of circles. The circles, the cycles, the passage of the sun, the passage of the moon, the passage of water and it is never the same, never, those cycles that are the same every day and always for centuries of the centuries. By Liliana Rodríguez Alvarado aka Nabora Carrillo: Mexican Born in Torreón Coahuila Living in Morelia Michoacán Daughter Sister Aunt Couple Lover Friend Enemy Offender Bondadosa Culera Mocha Provinciana Intelligent Amorous Vengeful Must Pretty Liar Musician Actress Crazy bipolar Vividora Cougar Lolita Pendeja